Thursday, January 26, 2017
January 26, 2017 at 03:23PM
mental breaking point - you face your worst fears and conquer them unless they get you first .... #saThtsP
January 26, 2017 at 03:11PM
do you understand me? understand - the key of everything ... I have to find out how to understand #saThts
Monday, January 16, 2017
January 16, 2017 at 07:51PM
before someone respects you make sure you can respect yourself first #saThts
Saturday, January 14, 2017
January 14, 2017 at 09:55PM
we always have to be busy staying free is never an option the fact is, what would we be busy with?? some job, that we can have fun #saThtsP
Friday, January 13, 2017
January 14, 2017 at 11:41AM
all was okay.. but suddenly goto shondhay shob bigraya gelo shondhai suddenly brain jam feel korlam kisui thik moto decision nite partesilam na tarpor ulta palta panic ami vabsilam ar oi feelings basis e decision newa lagbe na ekhon parbo but ki j hoilo kisui bujhlam na evan re mittha kotha bola laglo.. tarpor prochondo vito hoye porlam ei vito moment gula te kj kora jai?? jotobar e chinta kori, na ei bar shikhe gechi tarpor e hotath shob elomelo hoia jai ammure daklam, na paira share korlam kintu emon koira khhb ekta luv hoi na l, emon amj khub ekta chai na, ulta ager tentuon er diner kotha mone poira jai.. tarmoddhe ghorer moddhe ghure ekta kuttar baccha.. eita amare jalanor jonno ek paye khara.. tobe ar jai e hok, shokal theke ghum ta valo disi karon kombol ta gorom kore nite parsilam abbu ekta katha die disilo gaer upor ar shuorer baccha ektu por por sound kortasilo aisha I had nothing to do but tolerate.. pore airphone lagya onek khon ghumaite parlam.. vallagse.... but what actually happened to me?? is it somewhat related with thanda??? ami eita bekkha korte partesi na l, but amar eto kharap obosthao howar kotha na.. thanda ta ki amar cope kora ba think kora ba decision neyar ability komay ditese???? apatoto noroker dike agaite chai na nijere dhore rakhte chai.. shetar jonno ki kora jai kisui bujhi na.. only Allah can save me ager motoi ekhon ghum theika uthi voy nia, tention nia, buk dhorfor nia majhei majhei bokamj koira feltesi majhei majhei ppl are laughing at me which is hurting me.... tobe gotokal exercise korte pari nai, it was also the reason for my hell of the bad day all I can say is, Allah helps me...... 😒😒 #saThts
January 13, 2017 at 07:12PM
messed up everything when cant take decisions.. anyway had to lie... 😒😒 this is dangerous I have to assure it doesnt happen again.... #saThts
Monday, January 9, 2017
January 09, 2017 at 03:40PM
am I suffering from sinus problem?? is it troubling my senses?? and therefore everything?? this days, thanda got too much may be my head got jammed by living continuously in blocked environment too much confusion is working in me and frustration too.... Wish Allah helps me..... #saThts
Sunday, January 8, 2017
January 09, 2017 at 10:11AM
amar amma 100 ek ta tention nia chole chakrite jawar iccha na thakleo daily jai tar satge varsity o face kore plus shongsharer jhamela to asei but amar ki hoilo?? hotath ki hoilo??? amar to abar eto frustrated obosthai pouchanor kotha na?? what happened to me???? kobe theika emon?? heidin theika may he varsity te taka ta disi oidin theikai karon ekhon taka dia disi, ekhon chaoleo ar way back nai ekhon jodi protidin severe jontronao hoi, tao cls koira jaite hobe kotha clo tention hoilei solve koira nibo but sove korte partesi na solution chinta korte gelei matha jam hoia ashe age onek solution chinta korte partam ekhon 2/3 tar beshi pari naa tahole ki amar decision making e somossa hoitese?? ekhon jodi bola hoi varsity te jaite hobe na to kemon lagbe?? I think I will be relieved "ah na, varsity te jaya kono bagher samne porte hoitese na amare " so what I am afraid of?? frustration itself diner por din amake frustration er moddho dia jaite hobe, jodio ami eita chai na what if I fail like karate classes?? cause karate cls amj continue korte pari nai iccha thaka sotteo, due to some regulat insolved problems abar karate cls re eto gurutto o ditam na obosso kosto clo prochondo eto kosto asha kori nai jai hok, ami elomelo feel kortesi kivabe ei unnecessary tention ami shamal dibo???? jodi na pari to ei somoyta kemne pass korbo?? #saThts
January 08, 2017 at 06:56PM
goto kisudin je ki poriman frustrated bolar baire kisui jeno hoitese na joto chesta kori kisui hoi na emon obostha kisutei nijere manaite partesi na khub hahakar lage eka lage kono solution e jeno kaj kortese na tention e pressure e ami vainga portesi manush koto pressure nei, ami simple pressure nite gelei jeno vainga pori kaj to korai jai, kintu chance pailei tention emon pechaya dhore je kono upay e thake na #saThts #ventilation
Thursday, January 5, 2017
Wednesday, January 4, 2017
January 05, 2017 at 01:28PM
marattok vabe frustrated out of tention decided to live as situation based again so much tention that I am feeling like mad.... hardly anyone to listen against lots of oddssssss...... #saThts
Tuesday, January 3, 2017
January 03, 2017 at 05:00PM
something terrible is happening with me ajke varsity vorti hoite jaya ekbare obostha kharap hoia gese kono kisu jeno thik nai matha emon stressed feel kortasi je ki kormu ta vabte partasi na, ebong completely pagoler moto lagtase amj khub atongkito..... rayhan/evan ashlo, ki j korlam kisui jani na sob e elomelo hoia gelo I am in panic minimum brain.mind o thik rakhte partasi na kisui vallage na jeno aguner upre asi this is very bad very bad sign ami shavabik thakte na parle sob venge porte pare kar sathe share kormu kisui bujhi na hopefully I get myself back varsity'r bepare sov cheye important bepar ki?? amar kaj gula thik rakha ogula korlei all okay but jei tention moner moddhe kuira kuira khaitese jodi otit repeat kore? jodi abar fall kori?? ki hobe amar?? amader family'r ki hobe?? abbu kemne react korbe oi sakku suorer baccha ki bolbo????? amar ma/boner ki hobe ora ki nie hope korbe???? mon ta var hoia ase kisutei eu vut theika bair hoite partasi na ar tention nia kisui valo hoi na but tention management amar ager cheye valo, right???? dekha jak Allah ki kore..... there is always a hope, this time I will come back insha Allah #saThts #ventilation
Sunday, January 1, 2017
January 01, 2017 at 10:20PM
mon ta marattok upset konovabei thik korte partasi na ki hoilo kisui jani na hut koira keno emon?? actually ami voy paitasi abar oi varsity life e fiera jaite chinta kortei oshustho hoia jaitasi this is causing stress kosto mosto koira really ki pabo ami?? and what if I fail again?? another set of bad moments, isnt it?? abar oshustho hoia porbo na to?? emon kotha, karo sathe share o korar shahosh paitesi na shotti ami totally elomelo hoia gesi this tention is fucking me in every case I am really in tention amj parbo to?? and what if I fail?? I feel alone ekta certificate er jonno eto sacrifice, oi certificate er value kotokhani??? I need a place where I dont feel alone every leaves there is no guarantee of anyone and I hv also trouble, connecting with those who are available but anyway, I am so fucked up and this environment here, this feels like against me I feel locked and cant think may be it is a try again and if I fail, at least I can tell myself, I have tried I havent give it up I need a place where I can live in peace feel free nothing is really working to calm down myself what would I do?? I cant even think but I have survived worst situations than this I wish this time Allah bless me with better results #saThts #may_Allah_help_me
January 01, 2017 at 02:40PM
ki j koram kichu bujhi na edaning amar situation management marattok down korse I think kemon jani sob kisu te react kori nijer decision re respect kori na ba korte pari na ei jemon evan polada phone dia jalaya martase, asho asho cycle chalai amar really bindu matro iccha nai jaya adda marte oshubidha nai but cycle chalano, keno jani iccha kore na loneliness tar karone emon hoite pare 3-4 ta friend loya aichir pare daily adda ta miss kori ba ek dui din porei na hoi adda ditam but it used to give me confidence majhe majhe moja hoito valoi, mon tao halka hoito suddenly, 3ta key friend down howate ami really prochondo upset feel kori share korar manush jeno khub kom 2ta gandu, ovi and hridoy- idaning jei sob attitude shuru korsilo, self respect rakhte gele emon attitude kortei hoito but what has hurt me that, mehedi's leaving ... eita prochondo hurt korse, really .... ekhon ratre pray e kharap lage valoi sob kisui kemon jeno upset feel kori I dont want to break for that sob somoy chinta korsi, emon shomoy ashle solution ber kore nimu actually solution to bair kori thik e, but tarporeo jeno mon valo hoi na sobsomoy e upset thaki, notun ba jara available ase, eder sathe khub ekta jeno jome na .... ba iccha kore na movie dekhtam age, idaning jeno movie deikhao moja pai na may be the way of managing everything--- that's where some trouble is occuring ar indecision, prochur indecision is happenning, which is troubling a lot shiddhanto nite idaning khub kosto hoi, frustration e vugtesi onek din pore likhar chinta korlam asolei khub lonely lage idaning .... #saThts #vantilation
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