March 12, 2017 at 05:30PM

ajke keno jani matha betha ta beshi mone hoitese... #saThts

March 12, 2017 at 01:09AM

now I can think and connect without having any headblocking no one ever will understand the trouble of it now, the next challenge is keeping it up #saThtsP

March 02, 2017 at 11:57PM

its nothing nothing working poor talkings but may need to lookout more #saThts

February 24, 2017 at 02:47PM

again started serolux what else I can do??? what else way is left for me??? when nothing else works?? every system that used to work for me got messed up when I left med now I am thinking suicidal when every single person in the house is suffering !! what else I can do to lessen my near one's suffering??? how can I save my family?? or if I take med, how would I live with that life, when constantly I have to feel I am a psycho?? May be, Almighty Has an answer for that 😞😞 Now, took the medicine only to survive... and, I am feeling less suicidal may be #saThts

February 23, 2017 at 12:08PM

life sucksss.... after so many times, achieving everything now I have gone back that point where I was so frustrating whats gonna happen????? how much pain I should have to bother? when would I learn to think and do??? when would I get rid of this life of discreditness why my little sister have to suffer at this age? why parents have to die in their mind??? what is the reason behind it???? why life became so unfair????? #saThts

February 20, 2017 at 10:20AM

ami nana hoite chai na 😞😞😞 ami ei vabe disable er moto ghore poira thakte chai na kintu ki korbo ami? ki hobe amar? kivabe ki korle kono somossai porbo na? k dekhbe amake?? because I have a fucking mind 😖😖 #saThts

February 19, 2017 at 06:12PM

shunnota hatasha onishchoyota going on and on there is no solution no way no hope only give up, hopelessness this is death before death life feels just like a burden meaningless one person is doing his job feeling like he is going to die another person doesnt know where to go, either leave these pains or hold these me dont know in which gurbase I am in.. and the little one just questioning why everything is so upset and why she has to carry???? where is the end of all these?? where is the end of these pains???? #saThts

February 16, 2017 at 12:03PM

ha ha ha what would I say?? I hv lost everything everything...... varsity te vorti hoilam/ parlam na continue korte tarpor sob sesh amj je pura pauri vainga porsi ekhon niomito suicidial thoughts mathai uki dei ami completely eka ki korbo koi jabo kisui bujhi na amar jonno je duniata theme geche kau kau to amar obostha deikha haisha fele,, ba durbol je mone kore segula kothai, achorone prokash pai jei polapain are expected to help, they act to help in real they dont care.... they never care 😞😞 nijere bojha mone hoi jani na vobisshot ki valo bondhu? aha... koto valo 2 ta bondhu ase vabsi.. tuhin ar hassan they r gone hassan re pawa jai na ar tuhin doesnt like me anymore everything I told to him, I never meant.. but this guy is sensitive and egoistic ami abar milmish korar try korsi, but looks like he is decided . abar age fb te likhtam, likhe mon halka kortam, majhkhane ki emon hoilo, je kisutei mone shanti paitesilam na konovabei na amar last offline post er bohudin por eita post korlam karon amar sob system er upor theika bissash uthe geche amar personality'r upore bissash uthe geche thats why nijeke ar manush mone hoitese na ar tai ar bachte iccha kore na 😞😞 and now, I feel like I am a beggar 4 deale bondi jar life has ended and with no future waiting to die now I rest my life to Almighty Only He would save me if He wants not from death but from pain when i would be normal?? 😒 #saThts #vantilation

January 26, 2017 at 04:05PM

everyone is afraid of something ... #saThtsP

January 26, 2017 at 03:23PM

mental breaking point - you face your worst fears and conquer them unless they get you first .... #saThtsP

January 26, 2017 at 03:17PM

idiot- who tells anything whatever comes in his head #saThts

January 26, 2017 at 03:11PM

do you understand me? understand - the key of everything ... I have to find out how to understand #saThts

January 16, 2017 at 07:51PM

before someone respects you make sure you can respect yourself first #saThts

January 14, 2017 at 09:55PM

we always have to be busy staying free is never an option the fact is, what would we be busy with?? some job, that we can have fun #saThtsP

January 14, 2017 at 11:41AM

all was okay.. but suddenly goto shondhay shob bigraya gelo shondhai suddenly brain jam feel korlam kisui thik moto decision nite partesilam na tarpor ulta palta panic ami vabsilam ar oi feelings basis e decision newa lagbe na ekhon parbo but ki j hoilo kisui bujhlam na evan re mittha kotha bola laglo.. tarpor prochondo vito hoye porlam ei vito moment gula te kj kora jai?? jotobar e chinta kori, na ei bar shikhe gechi tarpor e hotath shob elomelo hoia jai ammure daklam, na paira share korlam kintu emon koira khhb ekta luv hoi na l, emon amj khub ekta chai na, ulta ager tentuon er diner kotha mone poira jai.. tarmoddhe ghorer moddhe ghure ekta kuttar baccha.. eita amare jalanor jonno ek paye khara.. tobe ar jai e hok, shokal theke ghum ta valo disi karon kombol ta gorom kore nite parsilam abbu ekta katha die disilo gaer upor ar shuorer baccha ektu por por sound kortasilo aisha I had nothing to do but tolerate.. pore airphone lagya onek khon ghumaite parlam.. vallagse.... but what actually happened to me?? is it somewhat related with thanda??? ami eita bekkha korte partesi na l, but amar eto kharap obosthao howar kotha na.. thanda ta ki amar cope kora ba think kora ba decision neyar ability komay ditese???? apatoto noroker dike agaite chai na nijere dhore rakhte chai.. shetar jonno ki kora jai kisui bujhi na.. only Allah can save me ager motoi ekhon ghum theika uthi voy nia, tention nia, buk dhorfor nia majhei majhei bokamj koira feltesi majhei majhei ppl are laughing at me which is hurting me.... tobe gotokal exercise korte pari nai, it was also the reason for my hell of the bad day all I can say is, Allah helps me...... 😒😒 #saThts

January 13, 2017 at 07:12PM

messed up everything when cant take decisions.. anyway had to lie... 😒😒 this is dangerous I have to assure it doesnt happen again.... #saThts

January 09, 2017 at 03:40PM

am I suffering from sinus problem?? is it troubling my senses?? and therefore everything?? this days, thanda got too much may be my head got jammed by living continuously in blocked environment too much confusion is working in me and frustration too.... Wish Allah helps me..... #saThts

January 09, 2017 at 10:11AM

amar amma 100 ek ta tention nia chole chakrite jawar iccha na thakleo daily jai tar satge varsity o face kore plus shongsharer jhamela to asei but amar ki hoilo?? hotath ki hoilo??? amar to abar eto frustrated obosthai pouchanor kotha na?? what happened to me???? kobe theika emon?? heidin theika may he varsity te taka ta disi oidin theikai karon ekhon taka dia disi, ekhon chaoleo ar way back nai ekhon jodi protidin severe jontronao hoi, tao cls koira jaite hobe kotha clo tention hoilei solve koira nibo but sove korte partesi na solution chinta korte gelei matha jam hoia ashe age onek solution chinta korte partam ekhon 2/3 tar beshi pari naa tahole ki amar decision making e somossa hoitese?? ekhon jodi bola hoi varsity te jaite hobe na to kemon lagbe?? I think I will be relieved "ah na, varsity te jaya kono bagher samne porte hoitese na amare " so what I am afraid of?? frustration itself diner por din amake frustration er moddho dia jaite hobe, jodio ami eita chai na what if I fail like karate classes?? cause karate cls amj continue korte pari nai iccha thaka sotteo, due to some regulat insolved problems abar karate cls re eto gurutto o ditam na obosso kosto clo prochondo eto kosto asha kori nai jai hok, ami elomelo feel kortesi kivabe ei unnecessary tention ami shamal dibo???? jodi na pari to ei somoyta kemne pass korbo?? #saThts

January 08, 2017 at 06:56PM

goto kisudin je ki poriman frustrated bolar baire kisui jeno hoitese na joto chesta kori kisui hoi na emon obostha kisutei nijere manaite partesi na khub hahakar lage eka lage kono solution e jeno kaj kortese na tention e pressure e ami vainga portesi manush koto pressure nei, ami simple pressure nite gelei jeno vainga pori kaj to korai jai, kintu chance pailei tention emon pechaya dhore je kono upay e thake na #saThts #ventilation

January 05, 2017 at 06:38PM

once I didnt need any napa now I again .... 😒😒 #saThts

January 05, 2017 at 02:42PM

When You Dont know What To Do You Are Frustrated 😒😒 #saThts

January 05, 2017 at 01:28PM

marattok vabe frustrated out of tention decided to live as situation based again so much tention that I am feeling like mad.... hardly anyone to listen against lots of oddssssss...... #saThts

January 03, 2017 at 05:00PM

something terrible is happening with me ajke varsity vorti hoite jaya ekbare obostha kharap hoia gese kono kisu jeno thik nai matha emon stressed feel kortasi je ki kormu ta vabte partasi na, ebong completely pagoler moto lagtase amj khub atongkito..... rayhan/evan ashlo, ki j korlam kisui jani na sob e elomelo hoia gelo I am in panic minimum brain.mind o thik rakhte partasi na kisui vallage na jeno aguner upre asi this is very bad very bad sign ami shavabik thakte na parle sob venge porte pare kar sathe share kormu kisui bujhi na hopefully I get myself back varsity'r bepare sov cheye important bepar ki?? amar kaj gula thik rakha ogula korlei all okay but jei tention moner moddhe kuira kuira khaitese jodi otit repeat kore? jodi abar fall kori?? ki hobe amar?? amader family'r ki hobe?? abbu kemne react korbe oi sakku suorer baccha ki bolbo????? amar ma/boner ki hobe ora ki nie hope korbe???? mon ta var hoia ase kisutei eu vut theika bair hoite partasi na ar tention nia kisui valo hoi na but tention management amar ager cheye valo, right???? dekha jak Allah ki kore..... there is always a hope, this time I will come back insha Allah #saThts #ventilation

January 02, 2017 at 11:52AM

think by #conversating otherwise, you may lose your mind #saThtsP

January 01, 2017 at 10:20PM

mon ta marattok upset konovabei thik korte partasi na ki hoilo kisui jani na hut koira keno emon?? actually ami voy paitasi abar oi varsity life e fiera jaite chinta kortei oshustho hoia jaitasi this is causing stress kosto mosto koira really ki pabo ami?? and what if I fail again?? another set of bad moments, isnt it?? abar oshustho hoia porbo na to?? emon kotha, karo sathe share o korar shahosh paitesi na shotti ami totally elomelo hoia gesi this tention is fucking me in every case I am really in tention amj parbo to?? and what if I fail?? I feel alone ekta certificate er jonno eto sacrifice, oi certificate er value kotokhani??? I need a place where I dont feel alone every leaves there is no guarantee of anyone and I hv also trouble, connecting with those who are available but anyway, I am so fucked up and this environment here, this feels like against me I feel locked and cant think may be it is a try again and if I fail, at least I can tell myself, I have tried I havent give it up I need a place where I can live in peace feel free nothing is really working to calm down myself what would I do?? I cant even think but I have survived worst situations than this I wish this time Allah bless me with better results #saThts #may_Allah_help_me

January 01, 2017 at 02:40PM

ki j koram kichu bujhi na edaning amar situation management marattok down korse I think kemon jani sob kisu te react kori nijer decision re respect kori na ba korte pari na ei jemon evan polada phone dia jalaya martase, asho asho cycle chalai amar really bindu matro iccha nai jaya adda marte oshubidha nai but cycle chalano, keno jani iccha kore na loneliness tar karone emon hoite pare 3-4 ta friend loya aichir pare daily adda ta miss kori ba ek dui din porei na hoi adda ditam but it used to give me confidence majhe majhe moja hoito valoi, mon tao halka hoito suddenly, 3ta key friend down howate ami really prochondo upset feel kori share korar manush jeno khub kom 2ta gandu, ovi and hridoy- idaning jei sob attitude shuru korsilo, self respect rakhte gele emon attitude kortei hoito but what has hurt me that, mehedi's leaving ... eita prochondo hurt korse, really .... ekhon ratre pray e kharap lage valoi sob kisui kemon jeno upset feel kori I dont want to break for that sob somoy chinta korsi, emon shomoy ashle solution ber kore nimu actually solution to bair kori thik e, but tarporeo jeno mon valo hoi na sobsomoy e upset thaki, notun ba jara available ase, eder sathe khub ekta jeno jome na .... ba iccha kore na movie dekhtam age, idaning jeno movie deikhao moja pai na may be the way of managing everything--- that's where some trouble is occuring ar indecision, prochur indecision is happenning, which is troubling a lot shiddhanto nite idaning khub kosto hoi, frustration e vugtesi onek din pore likhar chinta korlam asolei khub lonely lage idaning .... #saThts #vantilation