November 06, 2016 at 05:40PM

hoitese na kisui hoitese naaaaaaa sob elomelo asole ami ki korte chai, ami jani na weather tao kemon jani, ondhokar, fucking monmora I had a target, that I would keep my brain and mind good, all the time what the fuck I am doing right now???? I dont know what I am doing I dont what I should do everything is si messed up that I cant even decide everyone is like watching me, waiting for me to do something I dont want to end up like chacchu or safiullah vaia but what I am doing, what is the explanation of that??? what should I do? where is peace??? where??? I am just feeling like a mad, nothing else in this work time, I decided not to do anything now I see, there is no use of sitting like thia shit and doing nothing no.point man, no point and this weather, this winter, I hate because it feels so depressing fuck yaa and other thing is, I feel like I can't solve any problem there is no pleasure I find in myself I got.some boost when tani was back, and after that, when I realized, it was just a fake thing, I just shattered again I need to be full on motivation, as like tani, I just got a point, like now I may be, should do something for someone means, there is a reason to do something for someone and the wounds I would get in that path, she will heal that, it was just like that I thought but it wasnt, as I realised now, I need reasons to move but if there is no or little reasons,.wouldnt I move?? may be I should try may be trying to move or moving forward may work as motivation to do further God knows where I am headed to 😒😒😒😒 #saThts